The heart wants what it wants

I remember being so caught up in what my heart wanted that I couldn't see straight. It's difficult to see past your heart when it leads the wrong way. It took a lot to finally decide to remove my heart. Even more to put my foot down and demand to be left alone. 

When I'm finally in a place where I can say I'm free here you come. I sit here waiting for the other shoe to drop. Holding out for what I need may lead to a lifetime of loneliness. Settling for what's in front of me may not turn out to be a settlement at all. However it's too early to know. I thought of things I wanted to tell you, but now...... I'm holding, waiting to see what you say next.