Its Here! Its Here!

I'm so excited! My ingredients arrived and now I will attempt the Deep conditioner a.k.a. Natural Relaxer! I cant wait! I cant wait! I cant stop thinking about all of the hair possibilities if this mess works....YAY!EXCITED! EXCITED! I will let you know what I think once its done... YAY!

My Heavy Heart!!!

OK so, here's what it is. You can only take a person as serious as they present their self to be. Now initially I cant fault myself for falling for the game. How was I to know that it was all just a game? But now, here it is.... Nice guy for the most part, or at least as far as I can see. But definitely into playing games. Now I don't know if that stems from insecurity or deviousness. There is a difference although I don't know if the outcome is really all that different. Either way there's pain that I don't have skin thick enough to withstand, so.... I say again I bow out...I'm not into games and clearly games are afoot here. Yea, the attention would've been nice. I'm not gonna lie, the thought of being appreciated was a nice thought. No, the thought of being wanted and appreciated really made me excited. Put a smile on my face and made me happy. But it was just an idea... one that once again I'll have to let it go. Oh it makes me sad to even think about it. But the pain of another bad relationship or one that seems all one sided... I don't have it in me to do again. I gotta find it in myself to focus on me and do things to make me happy with me. And 4get them all. The sooner I accept that this is my life and how its gonna be for the rest of the time we have left on this side, hopefully, the sooner I can move on. I cant focus on how disappointing this all is. I gotta do what has to be done next... which is nothing.

LIGHT BULB!!! I know, a little prayer goes a LONG way! So I'm going to stop here. Say one HUGE prayer for my heavy heart and keep it moving... I will get over this all the same, its just like anything else.

My Goodies!!! Part 2

OK so, as of yesterday all my goodies FINALLY arrived, but then I turned around and ordered some more things. So first let me tell you. I don't know how I've lived these thirty plus years of my life without vegetable glycerin and Argan oil???? Shea Butter and Coconut oil????? Its like come on... I don't even know. I found a old spray bottle that works perfectly in my closet. So I mixed Vegetable Glycerin, Tea Tree oil, EVOO, Peppermint Oil (for stimulation a.k.a. tingles & aroma), JBCO, Jojoba Oil, Argan oil, and water in the bottle. My hair has been loving this mixture. I did add the Rosemary oil to this mixture but I don't think I will repeat that addition next time (the rosemary keeps making me think of food, LOL!). I mixed some in a small spray bottle for Zimo to try on her dreads....survey says... HER HAIR LOVES IT! Ding! Ding! Ding! But my all time favorite thus far has been the "concotion" as my child and I call it. I mixed Shea Butter, Coconut oil, Argan Oil, and Peppermint oil and we use this in lue of lotion... MY SKIN LOVES IT! My child LOVES IT! I mixed a small portion as a tester, and we loved it so much I then made larger mixture. I tell you we love this oil. I keep telling everyone I know about this mixture as it will help with Eczema, Psoriasis, and extremely dry skin.... like I've stated before I have some kind of a skin condition going on. Its neither of the two mentioned but my skin has been responding well to this mixture as well. I can tell this will be a staple in my house...

But THEN!!!!!! I saw this video on YouTube about a natural "relaxer" and so when I watch it. I realize that its not actually a "relaxer" in the sense of the word "relaxer" that we think of. Actually its a deep conditioning treatment. Oh my once I finally get my Huetiful Steamer its gonna be even better. But I ordered the items needed to try this treatment on my hair yesterday. I cant wait to try it. It doesn't make your hair straight but it "relaxes" the natural curl pattern of your hair. I hope it works. I will post the video, and then my thoughts after I've tried it myself. Stay tuned. :o)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQD5vt5-3AI&list=PL4BEE3FB3DD0EF15C

My Goodies!

My goodies are coming! My goodies are coming! Yay! I finally found vegetable glycerin on Amazon.com. I HOPE my hair likes it, as I TRULY believe the key to love and healthy hair is moisture. VG is a humectant and is supposed to keep your hair moisturized. I need a good Spritz bottle, I think I will look for that today. Also my coconut oil arrived. I couldn't wait to get home, I put just a dab on the end of my ponytail and on my feet. (BIG CHEESE!) I ordered Rosemary Oil, more Jamaican Black Castor Oil, Peppermint oil, Argan Oil, and.... I think there might be one more thing...  My hair has been breaking off something terrible, and I think its because I was getting wash happy with my hair for a minute there. Some folks can wash their hair everyday or cowash everyday, I don't think my hair likes that. At three days I want to do it again, but my hair likes once a week best.... OH YEA! I ordered Henna too! YIKES! I've heard wonderful things about Henna I'm just a little scared to do it. It may sit in my bathroom for a minute... But I'm gonna do it eventually. I'll need all day to do it anyways. But I cant wait to play MAD Scientist in my kitchen mixing up my Spritz for my hair. And I'm praying it works out like I'm hoping it does. My dream is to have hair down my back. And I don't mean shoulder or middle of the back.... I'm talking back of knees. I great grandmother had hair like that, but she was a totally different person than I am. My aunt has hair down her back like that. But again she's a different person than I am and totally different hair type. My hair has broken off so much I doubt it would hit my neck when straightened... SIGH! Back to the drawing board. But this is also why I'm excited about my new goodies. They will help put me on the road to recovery. I CANNOT WAIT! LONG, THICK, FLOWING HAIR!!!!!  That's my goal, that's where I wanna be!